Once I dreamed about starting to write my blog in english. But I have never started. 
At the moment I am quite lost. However, maybe not and I just do not want to accept which way I have chosen. 

Life is shit.

La vie, c'est la merde, hein.

I feel uncomfortable to betray myself. I liked science a lot and I still do. But I am more and more about leaving it. And I feel kinda betrayal of all my professors. Their investments in me was wasted.

Probably science hurted me. The relationship between me and science was quite one directional and abusive. Still nevertheless I feel guilty and mercantile.

I will see. The moto of this year - do not try to forecast just live the moment.